Thursday, April 23, 2009
Decision
The worst kind of decision is the kind that tears a gap between your head and heart. One that I have defiantly had to make in the last week. You need to decide what is going to be best even though that isn’t what you really want. This is where the gap between mind and soul extinguish so powerfully with such ferocious passion that you are left weak and with the hardest most heart wrenching decision you will have to make. For most I hope that there are only a select few points in their life when faced with these situations but for some they seem to be a reoccurring event. Each time you choose, the first time you are faced with this most follow their heart, the second time again most likely the heart, but the third is where the toughest decision arises. You have the experience now of following your heart so what about following your head? It seems like an easy choice to make, i mean we think with our heads over our hearts everyday, but then why does this seem so hard? I believe that it is because no matter how many times it happens you still believe that your heart will make the right decision. Every person can say that even if you make the right decision to use your head and better judgement that your heart still waves a cloudy mess of emotions for a long time after, playing ‘what if’ situations or the ‘it’s different now’. But I will urge anyone who reads this to shut out those thoughts. Be ruthless and follow your head not your heart because no matter what you think, its probably right. Your heart doesn’t learn, it repairs itself day by day until it forgets the pain it once had. But your head, it never forgets and will remain scared, never forgetting the struggle it took being let down. Make the decision no matter how hard it may seem because the light at the end of the tunnel is blinding with opportunity.